A Very Gay Weekend

This weekend I went up to Berkeley and had the most amazing time. I got in touch with my gay roots hanging out with 5 other extremely good-looking, fun guys. I drove out to LA friday morning to meet Jack (who was about 1 hour late in meeting me!) and we left for norcal from there. On the grapevine he almost hit a car, overturned to compensate, fishtailed, then did 2 360s until we ended up in the empty carpool lane. It was one of those moments where your life flashes before your eyes.

The rest of the weekend was great. We drank every hour of every day it seemed like. The first night we stayed in and drank, the next night we went clubbing in the castro and drank, the next night we went wine-tasting in Napa in a limo (yea we are that gay), followed by a little pre-partying at their house and another trip to the Castro.

One of the four guys that lives at the house is amazing. I wasn't looking for a relationship, but after meeting him I've decided that he is everything I'm looking for. Minus the fact that he's in a relationship. His boyfriend saw him kiss me and it got tense after that, but I hope that he felt something too and it will work out well. He was telling me that the last time thay got in a fight, his boyfriend hit him in the face and that he doesn't want to date someone like that. I hope I don't fuck things up, but at the same time I really really wanna be with him. He's quiet at first but a great talker after that, he is gorgeous, intelligent, successful, great tast in fashion and music, great friends...it's been a long time since I found any half-decent person at Cal. I don't wanna be too overbearing so I'm gonna let him decide what the next step is.

Next weekend is Tiesto!

Vegalicious

Last weekend I went to vegas and it was exactly like the scene out of a movie. 9 of us, frinds from high school, randomly decided we were all gonna go to Vegas together as a last summer trip. Tina and I met Sherry in Orange County and we left on our trip with all our goodies in hand and a lot of excitement. Traffic sucked so we blazed in the car and finally got to the Sahara around 5PM. The Sahara (which is dilapidated and not anywhere near the strip) was so trashy inside and the room was super small, but then again there were 9 of us sleeping in there so anything short of the Playboy suite wouldn't have sufficed.

From there we went to Nicky and Sammy's place in The Palms and had a few lines to prepare for the night. The rest of the group met us there and then we went to Hard Rock. It was such a shitshow, but so much fun. We drank and got twacked out til about 6 in the morning. Then Sam, Sherry, Tina and I went to eat at 24/7 and met these black guys who told Sam they wanted to lick her pussy. Tina, Sherry and I decided to go back early to the room and fell asleep only to wake up to the guys busting into the room screaming and trashing everything in sight...including kicking Tina out of the bed (she ended up sleeping on the floor with a towel). It was so hilarious to see all my friends wasted and just having an amazing time and creating these long lasting memories. Thank god we had Nazi Tina to take lots of pictures. We all blazed late into the night until we passed out.

The next day we woke up around 1 and went to the pool at the Palms, where the previous day they had playmate auditions, and we saw Mario Lopez! Yay! Basically we didn't eat the whole weekend cause we were either hungover. That night we decided the strip would be fun so we all went down there, but not before Tina and I, indulged in some ToSeeBees. Created an interesting night for us. I ended having a great time and had such a good feeling in my body, while she got extremely irritated and wouldn't talk to anyone. One of our friends somehow ended up in a limo where he met a serbian driver who had yay. Basically it was crazy. The next day we just blazed and left back to Orange County to get back to our average lives. I know I have understated the amount of fun we had together, but it was exactly like a movie and my friends are so great! We were for sure the group of fun friends that everyone wants to be a part of. Everywhere we went we had so much fun.

Troubled Disappointment

"There is also a troubled insouciance in his characters despite the appearance of living out a seeming fantasy – the clothes, the looks and lounging in the midst of a quasi-orgy fest – there is something fragile and complex about his characters," said Paul Cochran of Aishti Magazine.

I love art and culture. I saw this art on thebobblog and it reminded me of a few other amazing artists: Eric Fischl, David Salle, David Lachapelle, Paul Émile Chabas and Andres Serrano. I know it sounds cheesy but the works of these artists really embody how I would want my art to be. I don't want to get all emo, but they are just so stunning and speak to disillusioned youth. Very F. Scott Fitzgerald for modern day.

Average Day

I did some adderall when I woke up at 6:30 this morning because I didn't think I would be able to stay awake at work. I'm working at a pain clinic in socal, which means lots of old arthritic complaining patients and cracked out opiate fiends. It still amazes me that the government actually makes money off of things like oxycontin but won't legalize marijuana. Thank god I live in California. Anyways, the addy made me feel all tweeked out and irritable and I didn't eat so I'll probably end up feeling even worse later on.

Last night I blazed with Sammy and watched BongWater. It's this indie movie with Luke Wilson, Brittany Murphy, Jack Black, Andy Dick, and Jamie Kennedy. I love this movie almost as much as I love Dirty Love, Jenny McCarthy's movie. Dirty Love is possibly one of the best movies for gays, right up there with Mean Girls and Clueless. Please watch it! After that, I went over to Nicky's and blazed a little with Tina and him.

Definitely should have taken it easy and stayed home cause I was exhausted this morning. On top of that, I forgot to wear our special shirts that are to wish our leaving doctor goodbye. After getting to work (late) all cracked out, I had to run around and drive all the way back home to get the damn shirt. Oh well...atleast I remembered to pick up my OChem flash cards when I got back home.

Not sure what I'm going to do when I get home tonight. I'll proably go to the gym with Tina because I need to look good for my ex-boyfriend when we go up to Berkeley this weekend. Maybe even be a little adventurous and do 30 minutes in the tanning bed. I need to pick up some bud too before I leave for NorCal.